You Vs. Me
How a Post Came to Be
Down, Down, Down
Down the rabbit hole.
That's where February went
and I can vaguely remember it.
But went it did.
Down, down, down
tumbling head over heels
spinning out of control
and then it was gone.
March feels like it is starting off this same way
and I am desperately clutching hold of it.
It needs to slow down.
I need to go with it.
But at a normal pace.
I need to be present and live it.
I need to be able to remember it when its gone.
This is how I have felt all morning.
Maybe it's because my head hurts.
Regardless of the reason, I decided I needed to pull out of this spinning hole
so I went for a walk.
It didn't go quite as planned.
Before I knew it I was writing a blog post in my head.
It wasn't good. It wasn't happy. I said the "F" word.
It was full of other people's gremlins.
(here's a title: You Can Take Your Gremlins and Shove Them)
As the post spewed forth in my brain
(and yes, it was most definitely spewing)
I realized I was creating an art journal page in there too.
It was like watching a vimeo.
I saw my hands creating it piece by piece, element by element.
It was intriguing.
When the post/rant came to an end, I started to feel better.
It helped that every person I passed on the trail smiled or had a friendly word for me.
On the way back home I almost let the gremlins back in.
But they are a waste of my time.
I am who I am.
I am authentically me.
I live an authentic life.
My home and my blog are authentic.
I am who I am and I like it that way.
I Win, You Lose
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